TRIGGER.

TRIGGER!

a cg of 17 & 18 year old youths from WEFC Youth POD!

ADELINE!! Eu Jin!!
SARAH;
BERYL;
PEARLY;
KEITH;
JOSHUA;
JOEL;
DAVID;
AARON;
EZRA;
BRANDON;
ETHAN;
LUKE;
ESTHER;
JIAMING;
KELVIN

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Thursday, June 10, 2010 @ 11:51 AM

Beryl posts!!!

Hey Trig :D Esther posting on behalf of Beryl here. I'm putting up a mini-cg-testimony of Beryl's. I hope that after you read it you'll think of what does cg mean to YOU. and why you would/would not attend cg etc. Anyway Beryl's post has made me think of the question: "What does 'Trigger'/'Trigger-ed' mean to us as a cg, and why do we have that name. Are we carrying out the meaning of our cg name? ok I sound like a nag :| here's Beryl's post!

Hey people,its me. Gosh, it's really weird to be typing this in a somewhat dying blog or rather I feel weird typing this thing. I'm supposed to share this like a few months ago but hey,I'm doing it now(: Don't mind the long windedness as you read cause I'm the kind of person who like to put in a lot of unecessary info. I think Esther and Luke may have known this already, but just sharing for those who don't.

Actually,I have been in WEFC for a really,really long long time..since like pri school.And yes,I remember familiar faces(luke,joshua,hannah,lydia etc....) in the CG cause I also attended powerkids but you know,not the close friend type.At that time,I was close to Wei En(a girl, she moved to another church alrdy) and Aaron(coz all our parents are in the same cg).I attended church regularly okay.The problem starts in the transition to youth group la.

When I was in Sec 1&2,I was under Caleb and Sulwyn...Adeline came in during sec 2 i guess.Very vague memory but I think Wei En wasnt like there anymore in sec 2 cause her parents brought her to another church and Aaron wasnt there cause he was still,like young la.At first,it was okay with Wei En,she's funny and all.You know, like you have a friend with you.Then, we befriended another girl called Jessica(Winnie's younger sis).She's also the soft-spoken type.So when Wei En left,still have Jessica.Dont ask me why cause I dont know why I just cant make friends with other youths. Somewhat or somehow I see the other youths like "sacred-cannot-talk-cannot-touch"kind.LOL right?

Anyway,I also thought cg was a completely waste of time.During the period of splitting into the different gender cg(I'm still with Ade),I always got annoyed like how the other girls always laugh at their own inner jokes,over very small things etc...Just, laugh laugh LAUGH throughout the entire cg time and I dont get a single thing they are laughing about.So, I just stop attending in sec 3 i guess. Ade and Jessica kept texting me to come but I just gave excuses that my cca also happen to fall the same day(its true,but it ends way before cg so I can actually make it).There were a few times,maybe 1-3,that I came back but Jessica was gone..not gone gone la!

Adeline was still texting me to come back,she's really nice(: and she stop.. around the middle of my sec 4 year.Then there was once Aaron asked if I wanna join back the cg,told me I was still under Ade and I rejected it. I still have completely no idea that the cg was alrdy different and thought the same thing will repeat itself again.

Aha,now its my J1 year.Out of a sudden,someone most likely Adeline texted if I could come back to cg.Just dont know why, I agreed(I think God just suddenly said go! to me).

So I went and WAAAHHHLLAAAAAHH~~~~

I opened the door and I see this big group of guys with like 1 or 2 girls there. I totally freaked out man.Yes,outside maybe I'm smiling to be friendly or smth like that but inside,I was like shocked to the MAXX man.Oh shit, I'm with a group of strangers and I totally dont know how to talk or start a conversation at all.That's why I'm super quiet and weird during cg.An example if you havent notice,everytime I feel nervous or awkward, I will scratch myself excessively...scratch head,hands,legs and especially arms OR keep drinking water.

Then esther came along~woohoo,a girl and she looks friendly and shes the first I actually make friends with.So you notice I keep sticking to her.Then another problem....actually I was still uncomfortable with the cg(guys dont really talk if they dont know you well,sarah was like zzzz-i-dont-know-what-to-say-to-her,pearly was super scary,adeline was like go-and-make-friends-yourself kind)and I didnt want to become a leech to Esther.You know what it means right?
So I was on-off throughout J1.Esther kept asking me to come and I gave excuses again.

And so...didnt come for cg at the end of J1 and now,its J2 Year!
But this time,it was like BANG!!!Suddenly at the beginning of the year, God told me again to go back. This time,with a reason.It was smth like"Eh,if you dont go back it will just keep repeating.Just make the effort to keep coming constantly and build the relationship".And guess what,I did and also found out that Pearly,Brandon,Jeanette,Eliza all went to PJ.Its also another way to build friendship ya?

So I came for cg,David's farewell (: but thats not the end yet ):
I wavered in the recent 3 weeks and then news of Adeline stepping down strucked me.OMG,you know when she said that,I felt so guilty.I felt as though I disappointed her throughout my life since sec 2 and all.She's so nice,so....uh committed.

Anyways,I've decided to type this lloooooooong message cause I've just finished my 3rd day of E.E.Adeline texted me about this last wk and I felt so guilty that I told her I will go for it.

Alright,I will like end here.Hope you guys enjoyed my story and that you dont mind the long-windedness.Btw,I think you can guess who am I alrdy la.

-Beryl.

Esther wrote.