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Sunday, May 29, 2011 @ 10:45 PM
my plea please please please please please share. please come for cg. please share with the rest of the cg what's going on, the struggles in your lives, the struggles you face with God. because if you don't, we'll never know. maybe until it's too late. please stop clamming up. because you only have yourself to blame when you say you don't have a supportive cg that you feel comfortable when you don't even want to share. do you know it feels horrible and torturous when i find out individually how you feel towards cg? i can't take care of everybody, it's too much a hassle to go to each and every one of you one by one to try and find out what's happening, and most of the time i don't get anything out of you at all. i can only find out when i stumble across your rarely updated blogs, or when ade manages to dig something out of you. do you know that i feel horrible everytime i find out someone in the cg is going through a rough patch i didn't know about? and that i blame myself for not being as acute and as astute as ade is? that she can find out so many things about you that i can't? or that i haven't realised? i was asked by someone in our church who's not in youth min "Hey Esther, have you ever considered serving in church?" because he didn't know that i was serving. guess what was my reply "I'm already a cg leader. It sucks." it's really difficult, and to quote ade, "serving sucks", it really does. but i'm still hanging on. especially for the past few weeks, God has been repeatedly telling me in various ways, through various people that it is an honour to serve Him, it is an honour to know Him, to be saved be Him. That's why i'm holding on. p.s. am looking at the names at the side of this blog. we're still one cg. i believe it. please pray for those who have been missing. Esther wrote. Thursday, May 26, 2011 @ 8:42 PM
in response to mok well, when i first saw the sms from sarah, my first reaction was: wow. haha. and i noticed that she must've took the effort to remember/store/retrieve the acc name and pass, so that was a greeaatt encouragement to me cos even josh didn't(/doesn't) know -- well sarah i'm glad you took up my offer to lead BS, AND I WAS SERIOUS OKAYYY. should i be glad that you were reading the bible, though not the passage i was referring to, and you're taking initiative to lead the next cg, though not leading the stuff that i want you to go through? i guess i should be right. haha. i'm glad you were forced to come for cg last week C: regarding your attendance to the cg, i thought of asking you, but i thought the other dear regular girl in our cg *cough* was asking you, so i didn'w wna bother you. apparently a wrong assumption to make. SARAH MOK I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING FOR MY GP EXAM TOMORROW YOU SEE YOU HAVE SO MUCH WEIGHT LORH (not literally) oh anyway i know you were not listening to my (somehat) BS haha. and you all were having a good time playing one another's itouch/iphone games -- well my other reaction before/while/after reading you post: our prayers are answered. Thank you, mok, for being such a great encouragement to be, cos i've not been having a great time spiritually as well, in terms of my growth and my determination to serve. I look forward to your sharing! btw, this week's cg is not on sat, cos josh, ezra and i are not free. so it'll be on sunday after 9am service WHICH MEANS JOEL AND SARAH YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP AND COME FOR 9AM SERVICE HAHAHAHAHA. sarah this is a physical milestone you have to conquer haha. ok i really have to go study. GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU C: Esther wrote. @ 7:28 PM
Sarah's first post AND ITS SERIOUS BUSINESS haha Hello Everyone. Took a looooong time to figure if I should post what I wanna post but here I am. ( still uncertain whether to push the publish post later ) & It's pretty serious considering I POSTED IN THIS BLOG for the very first time. SO READ. CAREFULLY. K. I know it's long and I think I blabbered quite abit BUT READ IT >: Anyway, the past month plus has been quite a rough time emotionally for me, for some certain reasons which I MIGHT share soon. & it really has made me lose faith ( majorly ). That's a huge part of why I've been MIA for a few weeks but looks like no one really asked ( I am quite happy I don't have to reply with white lies but on the contrary, I think someone should have been concerned enough to ask but I guess it's cause I havent been very regular anyway. ) SOOOOOO....... Anyway, I finally went back to CG last Saturday ( Just for a record, the people who turned up were me, esther, joel, ezra and... oh nobody else, but I think we had a good time. ) Frankly, honestly, I turned up only because I promised Keith that I would go with him, ( but he had something on last min so I couldnt not go LOL ) and partly, the dog which bit me a few times... HAHA, and I had no choice cause I promised to go. So, ya... I WASn't very willing. :/ sorry guys but no more hiding the truth cause it's pointless. Anyway, point is.. Esther said ( in a rather kiddingly way with a hint of seriousness ) that I should do the next bible study. But obviously I said noooo. HAHA. My response to that is : No, it's not because I'm lazy. ( maybe part of it ) BUTTTT... For my first bible study, I will want to share what has happened to me, what made me lose so much of my faith these time round, what I am struggling with now, what affected my life so much and what made me into such an angry person. ( You guys might not see it but ya.. ) What made me take such a skeptical view on life and how I might be going to change all of that if I am able to with God's help. I say Might, because I really don't know if I can do it... I think it could be a fairly long shot. But God gave me my first hint last week when I went back to CG. Ironically he showed me he knew what's going on with me through literal words in the bible ( I'd say its a mix of coincidence ( skeptical view ) and also that he's trying to speak and grab hold of me before I slide away ( christian view )) I was (pardon me,) Freaking amazed. So Esther, if you saw me so interested in reading the bible last week after telling me a passage to read, sorry to say, I was reading another page that was accidentally turned to. HAHAHAHA. But thank you so much for sharing the passage or else I would not have seen it! SO TO END OFF, I. WANT. TO. SHARE. WITH. YOU. GUYS. and it was a very very very difficult decision to make and I'm still wondering if I should but... IF I WERE EVER TO LEAD A BIBLE STUDY. I WANT TO SEE ALMOST EVERYONE THERE TO LISTEN TO ME CAUSE I WILL NOT REPEAT WHAT I SAY EVER BECAUSE IT IS NOT A VERY EASY STORY TO TELL. I WANT ALL THE MAIN REGULARS OF THE CG TO BE THERE. and i wonder if that's possible. So if it ever happens, please give me time to talk hehehehe. Last of all, I don't know what you guys will feel after seeing this. But if it's concern or worry for ME, don't worry. BECAUSE IM FINE. Really -_- Dont come ask me what happen or give me verses that will not help me because it won't unless you guys listen to me! ... -_- I wonder if this will fall on blind eyes HAHAHA. Or empty brains. Anw, make an effort to come together on one session at least because I might lose my motivation to speak soon HAHAHA >: & I might forget what I want to say. :/ Okay THATS IT. SORRY TO MAKE YOU GUYS READ THROUGH THIS. ANY QUESTIONS ASK ME BUT DONT ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED K. Yayyyy okay. Now I'm gonna sms all you guys to read this crap. Love, the sarah you don't know very well. Sarah wrote. Wednesday, May 18, 2011 @ 6:48 PM
Go4th conference http://go4th.org.sg/wp/ Here's an event everyone is strongly encouraged to go. Do inform me/Josh if you're going, and you can join youths from other CGs/bring your own friends along. Esther wrote. |